Another Day

Today has been tiring.  I really want to move on, but things keep happening where all I want to do it call mom.  Then I remember, there's no one to call.  I did dream about her Sat night.  She came to me and told me that everything was going to be all right.  She also kept telling me to, "Just deal with it."  Probably what she would have said to me herself if she was here to actually say it.  I did ask her about what happened and she said that we'd never really know.  I hope it was just my mind trying to prepare the rest of me for that possibility.  The scary part is that I really believe she could tell me these things from wherever she is now.  I just keep hoping that we get some kinds of answers.  Anything would have to be better than this not knowing.