Thursdays

For some reason Thursdays seem to be worse than other days for me. I know she died on Wednesday but it's like it all hits home on Thursday. It was really the first day we had to wake up without her here and I feel that same dread each Thursday at some point during the day. This morning as I was taking Lillie to the farm/pumpkin patch I thought about calling her and telling her how crazy everything was going. I knew I couldn't so I thought about calling Mamaw, but I've never done that with her before. I just didn't know if it was the right thing to do. I guess it doesn't help that everyone else pretty much has their bad days on Wednesday so it sets me up for a bad Thursday. They are getting better. It's easier not to cry at every little thing now. Better, just not normal.